So 2019.. New year. New goals. New word?? Here's mine.

So many of us are all "BRING IT ON 2019" "OUT WITH THE OLD IN WITH THE NEW" "NEW YEAR//NEW ME" << (my personal fave *insert eyeroll*) "SO LONG 2018" etc. You know..all the Instagram captions while "boomeranging" with sparklers.

I think it's great. A fresh start. A new perspective...A chance to adjust your sails and get back on track. The problem is in about 3 weeks we will fall off..if we even make it that far. We will crash and burn and find 87 new ways to crash our diets and New Years Resolutions.

Instead obsessing over losing weight or a crash diet (and let's be honest a *usually* unattainable list) let's pick a word. A word that we can center every "resolution" we want to keep. Let's pick a word that points us in the direction we want to go in.

New Year's Resolutions aren't bad, but we all know how they go (and how they end). Sit down and make a list. No really...grab a pen and work through …

Walk out your calling // Chase your dreams

Dreams. Everybody has them. You dream to own your own business one day. Maybe you dream to build the home you've been "pinning" for years. Or if you're like most of us you dream to marry that person, get that job, move to that city, or start a family. Maybe as you've aged your dreams have changed. Maybe used to dream really big and the older you get the smaller your dreams get...

I am, by nature, a dreamer. You can ask my husband and close friends what I dream up and they all will have a different answer. I dream (and even go as far as to plan out how I will do it) to be and do all kinds of things. It seems like every year (ok every 6 months) I have another crazy "dream". I am always super excited and ready to embark on the journey towards my dream. If I told you them you would laugh! Honestly. I have some great friends (and a husband who puts up with my crazy) who just believe in me and have never said I couldn't do whatever I dreamt up. Some dream…

Have you not heard?

Tonight was an eye-opening Wednesday for me. Church & serving in our kids ministy, like always. We have 2nd grade-5th grade all in the same class together. In our kids service we begin with worship. I'll be honest though, my heart is not always ready to worship on a Wednesday night. From getting lessons ready, to feeding my own kids, keeping other kids from running around crazy, and just regular exhaustion from being with kids all day at heart is not always lined up and ready to truly praise God.

Tonight was no different than normal until I realized something very imporant. We were in the middle of singing a song and I was sitting behind the desktop monitor where we control the music. I sat there slumped in my seat..looking around making sure everyone was singing and paying attention. A couple of boys were talking and I prompted them to focus, be reverant, and worship. I sat back down, again, slumped in my chair. God immediately spoke to me, "Get Up!". So…

A Hunter's Wife Cry for HELP - Part 2

Well well well...say it ain't so. Hunting season is upon us again. If you didn't even know that then your husband/boyfriend/baby daddy isn't really an avid hunter. He's a poser. I bet his gun stays locked up somewhere instead of wedged between his passenger seat and center console. You know.."in the event he sees a deer somewhere he needs to kill"...

But..Like I was saying, It's DEER SEASON. YEE YEE. All of us redneck, white trash, hunter's wives knows what that means. It means we will have endless conversations about why we want them to go somewhere with us..kid's friends birthday party, dinner, church, really anywhere..and they will talk in circles about how important it is to be in the woods until we pass out from the lack of oxygen with the air filled with so much delusional "I am the woods..this is just what I do..this is who I am" crap.

Deer season means all of our good ZipLoc bags will disappear and the kitchen dish soap will find…

What do you see when you look at your tree?

There are a few things I wake up and strive to accomplish everyday. They are my non-negotioables; if you will. Everyday I purpose in my heart to read my daily devotional, my Bible, eat at least one meal at our kitchen table, complete my workout for the day, and keep all my fruit on my tree.

Now obviously there are other things I eat. Lord knows I don't miss a meal. Or bathe. Or play with my kids..spend time with my husband...but those things come natural. I don't have to remind myself to brush my teeth, but my non-negotioable list are things I have to make known to be a priority or they can be taken away.

The thing I had on my heart to tell yall about that's a big deal to me is my tree. I bet alot of y'all didn't realize you have a tree too. I' not talking about the ones that Irma almost snapped..or did...thanks Irma. I'm actually talking about you. Yeah YOU! YOU are a tree. Let me explain.

Matthew 7:20 says this, "Yes, just as you can ident…

Is it too good to be true?

Sometimes in life we can get so caught up in every single thing we have to do. We get so focused on everything that people will see from the outside and focus on how we can shine those things up. We have problems and we try to fix them. We have issues and we try to sweep them under the rug. We have friends, but we keep them at arms length. We have co-workers and we keep our Jesus life seperate. We have classmates who would never guess we go to church and consider ourselves Christians. We have Bible study friends who have no idea the sinful life we live on the weekends. We live lives that are contradictory to The Word. We live lives that are being lived to a man-made standard that is derived from magazine article, Pinterest accounts, and Instagram pictures. We are striving for perfection in our eyeliner and aren't even willing to forgive people and chip away at our hard hearts. We fully dive into anything our friends say is cool, but the last time we dove into God's word was...…

•I'm just a BUTTERFLY girl finding my place in this world•

Ever wonder what you want to be when you grow up? Wait. Most of you are grown up and you probably already are "something". Well I have grown..but I can't say I've grown up. In my mind growing up is building your life up. I have laid the ground work, but there has been no "up". Not yet, atleast. 
I've never had a career. I've had several jobs, but nothing I felt like WOW THIS IS WHO GOD CAREFULLY CRAFTED ME TO BE. I did feel like I was where God wanted me. To mold me and "lay the ground work", but I've never felt like that WOW THIS IS WHO I AM moment.
God has made a way for me and continues to do so. I have had SUCH a hard time trying to blog lately cause all of my post truly come from my heart. Even if they are silly. And my heart has been on hold for writing lately. I wanted to write this to encourage someone who feels the same way as I do. You may be young-ish like me. You may be in your 30's or 40's not that you're not Y…